inside.

sometimes I see myself as a spider

all legged

all terrain

all eyes

all scary.

all misunderstood.

ALL FUCKING WASHED AWAY BY RAIN.

but somehow im part of the problem,

believing that spiders are scary

as opposed to some internalized personal fear

and not even mine at that.

so I sit here,

ALL SCARED.

and for what?

and for who?

why?